Being Momma G: Day 16

I got a bit teary today. Well, actually, I got a lot teary today.

I had a bit of a meltdown as the enormity of the task ahead dawned on me. For most of today, I kept bursting into tears every time I opened my mouth. Jonathan kept giving me hugs and reassuring me that I would be fine.

With Mina not visiting us today due to illness, we only had one child to look after, which was a bit easier for me, but at the same time, I still felt out of my depth and really really really didn't want tomorrow to dawn.

For most of today, Sean was quite agreeable. After the 7pm feed last night, Sean slept and stayed asleep until 12.30am. Happy with the feed, he went back to sleep until 4.30am when he was next hungry. Again, he went back to sleep, so Jonathan and I were able to sleep some more.

Sean woke up just before 10am, and became quite unsettled after the feed. This behaviour was to continue for the next few hours. Sean stayed awake between the 10am feed and the 1.30pm feed, and after being awake for so long, he finally went to sleep at around 4pm, and stayed down until just before 6.30pm.

From here on in, Sean refused to sleep. He must have known Daddy was going back to work tomorrow, and wanted to spend as much time with Daddy as possible. We tried cluster feeding Sean, feeding him just before 9pm and at 9.45pm. Nothing worked. The little guy kept wanting to stay up and flatly refused to be settled, no matter what we did.

We are both exhausted and out of ideas. There's a bottle of expressed breast milk in the fridge, and we are seriously thinking of giving it to Sean, in hope that he will drink the milk and fall asleep soon afterwards. Here's hoping this idea works - Jonathan needs to sleep, now!