Being Momma G: Day 52

Either the little man was going through a growth spurt, or he was not well. Either way, Sean was fussier than usual.

Sean woke at 11.45pm for a feed, then again at 2.30am, and again at 4.30am, and again at 6.45am, and then again at 9.20am, and again at 11.50am, and again at 3.30pm. That was on average every 2 or so hours. To say the very least, I was feeling like I was pouring my milk down a bottomless pit that was constantly screaming at me for more food, which would also fuss and fight against sleep, making it all very difficult and tiring for everyone involved.

Because the little man was fussing so much all day long, there wasn't time for me to do anything else but to cater to Sean's every need. I felt very trapped all day long and unable to start or get on with anything at all - the feeds would take around 40 minutes, followed by up to 20 minutes to settle the baby, who would hopefully sleep for at least an hour, before he'd wake up and want the same again. All I did all day was get up from the couch, pick up the baby, sit down in the feeding chair, flop out my boobs, feed the baby, get up from feeding chair, wrap the baby in swaddling, sit down on my bed, pat and rock and shush the baby to sleep, get up off my bed, put the baby down in the bassinet, rock the bassinet and make shushing noises, walk out to the lounge room and sit down on the couch. I don't remember eating anything all day long, but I was sure I did eat something.

Jonathan came home from work to find me sitting on the couch with my eyes hanging out of my head. It had been a hard and long day, but we needed to eat, so while Sean was still asleep, I made dinner for us. Of course, Sean woke just as dinner was almost ready, around 7.30pm, so Jonathan ate while I fed Sean, and then Jonathan settled Sean while I ate dinner and cleaned up in the kitchen.

I have no idea what time the little man is going to wake up, but I can't keep my head up or my eyes opened any more, so I'm going to head to bed. A day of not much but a lot. I wonder how Sean is going to be like tomorrow.